I'm a bad person... get over it.
Yesterday Jim and I were laying together on his couch. He had been sick all day, and I accidentally woke him up from a nap. As I laid there, I could feel his heart thump inside of his chest. It was such a sweet moment, until I remembered that the reason his heart was beating so hard is because he is so sick.
Sometimes I dwell on the fact that he has been right next door for so long and I didn't even know it. But now, I'm starting to think that maybe it is a good thing.
Either way, we are both leaving this place, and I know that it would be so much harder to say goodbye had we met back in October.
But... I still can't help but think that maybe, if fate wouldn't have gotten in the way, we could have made this work.
Maybe I'm stupid. Maybe he is dishonest, and maybe I would never trust him enough for a relationship to work.... but I guess now I will never know.
For now, I'm going to enjoy the time we have left together and maybe someday we will cross paths again. And things will be just as magical.
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