As I was flipping back through the pictures, I noticed that my face looked so big... which is always the first sign that I'm gaining weight.
It's true, I've put on about eight pounds since I moved back to Ohio. The first couple of months here, I didn't get much exercise and my eating ranges from super healthy to totally out of control. I don't really mind the weight that I'm at, but I also don't want to let things get out of control... which I know would be so like me.
So, in order to get myself back on track , I've decided that I need a physical/mental health weekend. And, this is probably my last chance at that for a while.
Next weekend, I will be packing and organizing everything I own and then the next weekend is moving day. It's all super exciting but just as stressful.
So, this weekend I plan on spending extra time at the gym, eating the way I know I should, and sleeping a whole lot. I also plan on getting a whole bunch of crazy stuff out of the way... so the next couple of weeks will be a little less chaotic.
I'm ordering my bedroom furniture (and maybe the living room/kitchen furniture too), purchasing renter's insurance (we already set up all of our utilities), getting organized, packing all of the clothes I know I won't wear in the next two weeks (like my bathing suit), and getting my interpersonal relationships under control.
That last one is important... but I've already started taking care of it.
First of all, for the past couple of weeks I've started to realize that I've been neglecting my friendship with Corinne. Since I've been staying with her and her family, I guess it's been easy to miss making plans with her. We talk almost ever day, but haven't really had much quality time together in a long time. So, on Tuesday we had lunch, and this weekend we are going to hang out, crochet, and listen to This American Life. It is totally not how I usually spend a Saturday night, but it is totally representative of my relationship with Corinne. So, I'm really excited.
After I wrote my last post, I realized how crazy my situation with John has been. So, I decided that it was time to come clean with him. I basically just told him the same things that I wrote here. And I admitted that, as tempting as a relationship with him is, I'm not sure that I could be faithful to him... which is sucky of me, but not as sucky as if I were to get into a relationship with him, and then cheat.
He understood, and gave me the whole "I'll give you time to figure things out." Speech.
I've already figured things out... so I guess I need to make that clear.
On Monday, I asked the other guy when we were going to hang out again and he said "Probably all weekend." We ended up hanging out on Tuesday, but hopefully he is still free this weekend...because he is exactly the kind of stress relief that I need.
It's crazy... people talk about commitment and love and all of that stuff. But my relationship with this guy is honestly one of the best things I've ever done for myself. We don't fight, we don't get angry or jealous or any of those negative things associated with a "real relationship." We just have fun and enjoy each other's company. Not that I'm dogging commitment... I want that eventually. But for now I just need to be 23, and have fun and take care of myself before worrying about anyone else.
And this weekend seems like the best time to put all of that into practice.
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