When Jim walked in, I was instantly attracted to him. The more I learned about him, the more I wanted to get to know him. And there was something about the way he looked at me that just drew me in.
Unfortunately, I didn't see him again for a couple of weeks. Every time I left my house, I looked next door, hoping to catch a glimpse of Mr. Perfect, but it just never happened.
A couple of weeks later, I went to the beach, which is where my fainting/head injury/stitches happened. Luckily, for a couple of reasons, Jim is a medic, and knows how to remove stitches.
We had a total of three meetings (?) to take them out, and each time I learned more about who he is, and the butterflies in my stomach became more persistent.
On a Friday afternoon he came over to take out the last 3 or 4. That weekend we were both scheduled to go to the beach, but I decided to stay home to take care of the dog, and he decided to stay home too. So, he gave me his number and told me to text him the next day. I was thrilled.
The next day, I texted him and he came over to watch a movie. That movie turned into two, which turned into him taking me out to dinner, which turned into a fire at his place with his room mates. Eventually, him and his room mate came back to my house to watch another movie. During the movie, we just kept getting closer and closer, eventually holding hands and cuddling. I'm not even sure what the movie was about!
When the movie was over, his room mate went back home, and he stayed. After a few awkward minutes we kissed...a lot.
When he eventually left, I was overcome with the feeling that it was going to be a good thing.
Oh how wrong I was...
On Wednesday, we went for a walk, and he mentioned that his friend Danielle was coming to visit for a few days, around the same time that my best friend Megan is coming to visit. For some reason, it just seems strange to me, like there was something funny about it.
So, on Thursday night I decided to do some major digging, via the internet. What I found was devastating. I found his "friend" Danielle's Facebook page, which indicated that they were, in fact, in a relationship.
I went through so many emotions in the moment. I was sad and angry. I felt played, but I also felt relieved that I found out so soon, before things got more serious. Heartbreak is probably a huge over statement, but I definitely feel betrayed and super disappointment.
Jim has been at a kid's came this weekend, counseling kids who lost their parents in the war. (Seriously, does he have to be so wonderful?!) So, I haven't really gotten to talk to him about it. I need his side of the story, I need an explaination.
But here is my dilemma: Do I tell his girlfriend? Everyone is telling me that I should, but I just don't know if I can. I think part of it is that I still really like him. Sure, I'm pissed off and would never date him. But, I just want to be around him and I know that if I tell her, he will never talk to me....
Life is hard.
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