I've successfully driven myself insane.

As I sit here, a couple of things come to mind. First of all is the fact that, in my head I refer to my department manager as Bobbalicious. Her name is Bobbie, but for some reason, it has been strictly Bobbalicious for the past few days. I think it has something to do with the fact that on a recent trip to Walmart, someone pointed out to me that she chomps away on her gum. This, combined with a general lack of respect for authority, resulted in Bobbalicious. I think it has a ring to it.

Another thought that just went through my mind, is the fact that one of my coworkers has no shame. If you remember my first post about Walmart, when I talked about the guy who reported is every move... well, this is the same guy. A few days ago, he was outside sweeping, and I guess he found a flower that he liked, because for some reason he decided to turn into a hula dancer and tuck it behind his ear. Now, some guys might do it for laughs, or just for a reaction, but this guy wore his daisy with pride... sporting it to the checkout line, the breakroom and yes... even the bathroom. Now, normally I would have just laughed it off... but I was genuinely concerned that someone was going to beat him up. Seriously, he needs to not be so flamboyant!

On a more serious note, the stress of the summer is finally setting in. I finally remembered that the reason that I am working at Walmart is to pay my remaining balance on last years tuition, and to get a good start on this upcoming years payments. As the weeks go by, I realize more and more how impossible it might be.

I've always thought that worry is essentially calling God a liar, but I can't help but feel like I've been neglecting God lately, so maybe he might just neglect me this time around. I know that if God wan'ts me to be at Malone this fall, he will, as always, provide a way. Keeping that mindset dosent help a whole lot though, because I have no way of knowing for sure that he auctually wants me to be at Malone, which is terrifying because I really truly love it there.

If I think back to this time last summer, I remember having the same doubts and fears, and as usual, everything worked out. This year however, I really don't see a light at the end of the tunnel. I've been working my butt off and it dosen't seem to be paying off like I thought it would.

I guess I need to just have faith that God's will is what is best for me... and that I really can only do my best. It's like the song Unpredictable by Francesca Battistelli that says:

When I know that I know what you have down the road, when I'm sure that I've figured you out, help me see that I'm small that I can't know it all, cause you're so unpredictable.

I want to make these lyrics my mantra over the next few weeks, so that I can
just chill out and trust in His plan!

Now, for fear of seeming to dramatic, I want to leave you with one of the funniest things I've seen for a while. This kid is hilarious. I suggest that everyone searches for Daxflame on Youtube! Enjoy!